Indomie Seleraku

Nearly everybody knows that I’ve gained quite a few weight since I started to work for ISOS last year. And even though I’m no longer staying in the mining site (which food can be considered 5 stars), I still haven’t managed to lose any pound in Jakarta.

So this past 2 months, I’m trying my best to put myself into a healthy life style of regular exercising and healthy diet. I tried to cut “simple carbs” off from my diet, e.g rice and instant noodles. Instead I have oats or wheat bread for the carbs portion in my dish. We, Indonesians, live with rice ever since we were able to take solid food. And surprisingly, I’m not craving for rice that much.

BUT, just this afternoon, I found myself enjoying the most tastiest instant noodle on earth. Yes… Indomie. Aaarrgghh..!! So this is the one that ruin my diet… :p

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*this was the exact variant I just had -_-

Some words popped out from the thought of instability..

The past few days, I’ve been involved in quite a few discussions with a friend about how more or less we’re put in kinda same situation of instability, esp when we’re looking outside the window of our friends getting themselves settled in whatever way you can think about (school, job, career, partnership, etc). There’s a sort of insecure feeling that we both feel whenever we’re thinking of our present stage of life.

Well, classically speaking, GOD has His own time to make things beautiful, and what He asks from us is just to wait patiently. Heard that many times, Tried to keep that thought as much as possible. But still I’m just a weak 😦

Few random thoughts came into my mind this morning and the point of me sharing them here is not because I’m stronger or wiser now. I’m actually trying to hypnotize myself, to keep control over my worries. So here they are

Some people are just born with easy life to live. They’re born in rich family, sent to the best school their parents can afford, have the intelligence they need to get good grades at school, get the scholarships, graduate, get good jobs, afford their annual super fun vacations, settle down with loving partner and adorable kids, well..you name it, all the dreamy life we all want to have. I’ve been told that EVERY single person in this world has his/her own struggle and drama regardless how beautiful his/her life seems to be. I’ve also read some biographies of success people who gain success after horrible times in their life. The common thing those people possess is the big faith. Faith in God (religiously speaking) and faith in themselves.

So I am now speaking to myself (and just shared it to my friend) that “IF I have to wait for HIS perfect timing, I am the ONE who’s responsible to make the waiting time ENJOYable and WORTHwhile.”

This too will pass 🙂

If it’s meant to be, it’ll happen anyway…

There are many things I was and am always worrying about. But I’m trying to keep that sentence in my mind. God really has a great plan for our life. If it’s meant to be, it’ll happen anyway… No matter how long we should wait. Regardless how far the distace we should walk, how much effort we’re taking. He’ll make it happen if it is HIS beautiful plan. On contrary hand, it won’t happen regardless how hard we beg HIM for things to be happen as our wish, if He actually is preparing something that is way more beautiful for us.

The only thing He ask from us is just to wait patiently. And that’s the damn hardest thing to do, at least for me. 😦

So here are the things I’m doing right now:

  • Never stop praying for my plan, yet surrender myself to HIS arrangement.
  • Do my best, give my best effort regardless what future may bring.
  • Live my life to the fullest, enjoying every happiness and every sadness

And here’s a song that keeps playing in my head these days… some of the sentences ring a bell every time I hear  and listen to them (put them in bold).

“A Thousand Years”

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And here’s the youtube link: